So far
This year has really been crazy.
Sometimes life throws the ********* situations at you and still expects you to keep going like nothing happened.
The fact that I do not even pray anymore, yet I still run back to God when things fall apart, is crazy to me.
The fact that I cannot breathe.
That I feel like I’m choking without even being touched.
The fact that I am scared of trying because failing feels like it will destroy whatever is left of me.
The fact that I’ve been lying in bed, rotting in my thoughts, watching myself sink and still somehow doing nothing about it…
It’s crazy.
Everything about this year feels heavy.
Like life keeps testing how much pain a person can carry before they finally break.
5d ago
May 29, 2026 at 7:45 PM UTC
So far
This year has really been crazy.
Sometimes life throws the ********* situations at you and still expects you to keep going like nothing happened.
The fact that I do not even pray anymore, yet I still run back to God when things fall apart, is crazy to me.
The fact that I cannot breathe.
That I feel like I’m choking without even being touched.
The fact that I am scared of trying because failing feels like it will destroy whatever is left of me.
The fact that I’ve been lying in bed, rotting in my thoughts, watching myself sink and still somehow doing nothing about it…
It’s crazy.
Everything about this year feels heavy.
Like life keeps testing how much pain a person can carry before they finally break.