Are you insane?

rachael-stainthorpe Poems

Maybe i am going insane, and nobody notices, because they're all kinda crazy too. But not my crazy. It's said that everyone is on a road to somewhere, so don't be upset if someone is not walking with you. But i am tired, and i am lost, and these feet are weighing me down, my mouth, it voices abuse, that my ears, can't handle, my brain is my noose, my hands seek refuge from listlessness of not being held. My eyes are tired, they weep tears of nothingness because my road is being paved and i must walk it anyhow, without you And how i miss those moments, when i had you with me, those few fragile moments when our paths collided. And i am sorry i fell apart because i couldn't bare another person walking with me because i was so used to being alone. And how i miss you, and your words and your conversation, and i could watch your mouth move, forever. I can't look back because its too hard to remember but i know i miss you, and my brain is heavy from it all and my heart is wrapped in sticky tape and i blu-tacked your name to the back of my hand so i would never forget you, and i am scared to forget, you. But you were not my crazy, some other kind, but not mine and maybe i am going insane but not your kinda, insane... so i had to walk away, for my sanity, what is left of it, tagged me on the back, and said 'it's time'. Still my hand hangs listless, waiting for your touch, but my arms know there will be no holding you tonight. Oh god, i cry, but i don't believe in such things.. Funny old thing, in this world, love, because it comes and goes, at a cost, and its why my head hangs low from all the insanity that my heart has brought to the table, in loving you.