When I look into my past it looks like broken mirror
It started out shiny and beautiful
Then the world got a hold on me
I took the beautiful life my God and Savior gave me
And threw it on the floor.....
This world looked so good to me but I only found that I was drowning in an ocean of sand
That mirror is corroded and disgusting
And all I'm left thinking is
Why was I so stupid
So many look at me and say Jesus shines in me
If that's the case why does my past look at me and like to bring me back
Why am I still here
I sometimes wish I lived at the time of the apostle Paul
Or I wish that I would be persecuted or beaten for my faith
Because that is nothing compared to what I deserve...
I wish those shards weren't stabbed in my back but that's where they are lodged
So why can't I be like pilgrim and drop my heavy burden?
Maybe because I'm a coward
Now here I am
At the feet of the cross
I would love to say I'll just put it down by the power of Christ and I'll be on my way
Why is it every time I throw it down it comes chasing after me?
Jesus I need you
I need to drop this guilt
I need to drop this sin
Sometimes I wish you could just give me a heart transplant
Because my heart crucifies you again and again
Day after day
I'm not strong enough
I'm worn
Jesus I can't fight this on my own
I can't win
I can't carry this
All around me are those you used me to love
But after what I've done I wish you would use someone else
I guess that's just one of the awesome things about you
Is where my sin abounds your grace is more.
I need your forgiveness
I need you
Please forgive me my Lord and my God
May 14, 2018
May 14, 2018 at 9:16 PM UTC
When I look into my past it looks like broken mirror
It started out shiny and beautiful
Then the world got a hold on me
I took the beautiful life my God and Savior gave me
And threw it on the floor.....
This world looked so good to me but I only found that I was drowning in an ocean of sand
That mirror is corroded and disgusting
And all I'm left thinking is
Why was I so stupid
So many look at me and say Jesus shines in me
If that's the case why does my past look at me and like to bring me back
Why am I still here
I sometimes wish I lived at the time of the apostle Paul
Or I wish that I would be persecuted or beaten for my faith
Because that is nothing compared to what I deserve...
I wish those shards weren't stabbed in my back but that's where they are lodged
So why can't I be like pilgrim and drop my heavy burden?
Maybe because I'm a coward
Now here I am
At the feet of the cross
I would love to say I'll just put it down by the power of Christ and I'll be on my way
Why is it every time I throw it down it comes chasing after me?
Jesus I need you
I need to drop this guilt
I need to drop this sin
Sometimes I wish you could just give me a heart transplant
Because my heart crucifies you again and again
Day after day
I'm not strong enough
I'm worn
Jesus I can't fight this on my own
I can't win
I can't carry this
All around me are those you used me to love
But after what I've done I wish you would use someone else
I guess that's just one of the awesome things about you
Is where my sin abounds your grace is more.
I need your forgiveness
I need you
Please forgive me my Lord and my God
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