You crack the door
checking to see if I am there
I am
I ask you to go away
but you come in anyway
dragging your obsessive negativity like a putrid corpse
You delight in my sorrow
your happiness at my downtrodden soul
I can’t tell If I am tired
or severely depressed
incessant thoughts of doom
a constant loop in my head
trying to block you out
I self medicate
but you still haunt me in my dreams
Is there really nothing left to live for
how can I seemingly know so much
But am ignorant of this
to which God or pagan rites do I appeal to
offering up my burnt soul
At the altar of self pity
all I seek is the quiet repose of my mortal coil
or is it fire an brimstone that awaits
Will I be allowed entry
past the pearly gate
Blessed are those that mourn
for they shall be comforted
Can I become a reasonable facsimile of my self
Am I doomed to wallow
In the muck and mire
What pray tell
proceeds me from here
Heaven hell or the vastness of space eternal
It is the unknown
That frightens me
Apr 10
Apr 10, 2026 at 2:27 PM UTC
You crack the door
checking to see if I am there
I am
I ask you to go away
but you come in anyway
dragging your obsessive negativity like a putrid corpse
You delight in my sorrow
your happiness at my downtrodden soul
I can’t tell If I am tired
or severely depressed
incessant thoughts of doom
a constant loop in my head
trying to block you out
I self medicate
but you still haunt me in my dreams
Is there really nothing left to live for
how can I seemingly know so much
But am ignorant of this
to which God or pagan rites do I appeal to
offering up my burnt soul
At the altar of self pity
all I seek is the quiet repose of my mortal coil
or is it fire an brimstone that awaits
Will I be allowed entry
past the pearly gate
Blessed are those that mourn
for they shall be comforted
Can I become a reasonable facsimile of my self
Am I doomed to wallow
In the muck and mire
What pray tell
proceeds me from here
Heaven hell or the vastness of space eternal
It is the unknown
That frightens me
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