The things you said the night before last, felt like venom
echoing in my head
The way I talk to myself
The way I'd treated myself
The way I think of myself... I hated hearing it in your voice.
But it was all true.
so
You think this way of me too.
I am "running in circles,"
I am "depressed," I have been all my life. It is in fact "all I know..."
and yes, it is "scary."
Now we're "in this together. "
Something I never wanted.
I never wanted to scare you.
I wanted to be everything I know I am not for you
Are we good for each other?
Why is it so easy to be mean?
You said I made you feel this way before too.
"Plenty times before."
I couldn't describe how I felt, but you took the words from my mouth
I didn't even have to spell it out for you this time
Yes I was empty
and so I guess you were too
I wanted to die.
I never want to make you feel worthless or empty.
I still love you, even after you made me hate myself even more
a true testament
For a moment
you were a living breathing manifestation of my self-loathing
I guess that's why I feel comfortable
I felt so comfortable last night
when we were sitting on my bed with my legs wrapped around you
my head was on your chest
I wanted to cry
I love the way you make me feel worthless
why did each kiss feel like a goodbye
You're the only one who knows me
Jan 21, 2016
Jan 21, 2016 at 7:42 AM UTC
The things you said the night before last, felt like venom
echoing in my head
The way I talk to myself
The way I'd treated myself
The way I think of myself... I hated hearing it in your voice.
But it was all true.
so
You think this way of me too.
I am "running in circles,"
I am "depressed," I have been all my life. It is in fact "all I know..."
and yes, it is "scary."
Now we're "in this together. "
Something I never wanted.
I never wanted to scare you.
I wanted to be everything I know I am not for you
Are we good for each other?
Why is it so easy to be mean?
You said I made you feel this way before too.
"Plenty times before."
I couldn't describe how I felt, but you took the words from my mouth
I didn't even have to spell it out for you this time
Yes I was empty
and so I guess you were too
I wanted to die.
I never want to make you feel worthless or empty.
I still love you, even after you made me hate myself even more
a true testament
For a moment
you were a living breathing manifestation of my self-loathing
I guess that's why I feel comfortable
I felt so comfortable last night
when we were sitting on my bed with my legs wrapped around you
my head was on your chest
I wanted to cry
I love the way you make me feel worthless
why did each kiss feel like a goodbye
You're the only one who knows me
mid 2015 was wild
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