walls are up
emotions locked down
head above water
trying not to drown
so much stress
anxiety
and depression
I flirt with death
and hide my expression
emotions elude me
though I feel them intensely
I am two things at once
both numb and full feeling
I spend most of my time
avoiding and daydreaming
searching for something
that can give my life meaning
I search for fulfillment
something or someone
emotional stability
comfort or safety
with so much to figure out
and a lot I still don't know
I'm trying to do my best
and that's enough for now
Jun 8, 2019
Jun 8, 2019 at 11:29 AM UTC
walls are up
emotions locked down
head above water
trying not to drown
so much stress
anxiety
and depression
I flirt with death
and hide my expression
emotions elude me
though I feel them intensely
I am two things at once
both numb and full feeling
I spend most of my time
avoiding and daydreaming
searching for something
that can give my life meaning
I search for fulfillment
something or someone
emotional stability
comfort or safety
with so much to figure out
and a lot I still don't know
I'm trying to do my best
and that's enough for now
I was 18 at the time I wrote this. I feel it was such an important piece of writing at the time and although its not my best writing its incredible to see how much I have grown as a writer and a person in the last 7 years
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