It’s been 5 years since I last checked in
Do you ever feel tired?
It’s been 5 years since I truly cried, do you ever feel overwhelmed?
I’ve always been in the shadow, building walls
Not just for myself, but for everyone.
I never truly understood what emotions were
I cry and I laugh, I sighed and I smiled
just as the actor on stage did.
I watch everything in my life happen just like I watched the red one.
Never in control, never truly owning it.
When I try, I always back away from the silent wars he carries.
Some battles are fought by sword and some by tinted wine
I often ponder how it all came to this.
I guessed I would never know, I never was in control.
Jan 8
Jan 8, 2026 at 5:14 PM UTC
It’s been 5 years since I last checked in
Do you ever feel tired?
It’s been 5 years since I truly cried, do you ever feel overwhelmed?
I’ve always been in the shadow, building walls
Not just for myself, but for everyone.
I never truly understood what emotions were
I cry and I laugh, I sighed and I smiled
just as the actor on stage did.
I watch everything in my life happen just like I watched the red one.
Never in control, never truly owning it.
When I try, I always back away from the silent wars he carries.
Some battles are fought by sword and some by tinted wine
I often ponder how it all came to this.
I guessed I would never know, I never was in control.