I may not have the most perfect physique,
but as I sit here,
having a beer and becoming aware of myself,
I realize that it is all that I need.
My neck, though it grows stiff on occasion,
is the perfect slope for the face of a lover.
My spine is long and narrow,
but crunched into itself
from years of compacting.
I want to reach inside my skin and set it free.
My shoulders are sloped, but sturdy,
and carry the weight of a thousand worlds.
One of my biceps is bigger than the other,
but that's okay,
its a natural phenomenon
and when I flex my right arm
it makes me feel strong, and powerful.
Capable.
I may not be thin enough
for you to count each tiny, delicate rib, but
I have a strong abdomen
and can do many sit-ups
or pull myself out from under you,
sit up suddenly to kiss you,
and anchor myself to the earth, yes -
My hips aren't as narrow as I'd like them to be,
but my quadriceps are strong and sinuous
My reflexes, feline
and my calves pure muscle,
I know
because ever since I turned thirteen,
I have been staring at them
after soccer practice in my cleats and shinguards
at the pool as the water drips off my legs and catches in the hairs
I've worked so hard to groom
in the morning as I stretch and caress their skin-
My feet
wiggle their toes into the moist, warm earth and keep me firm
and my eyes
pry into you,
always seeking
for things unknown
Aug 7, 2016
Aug 7, 2016 at 2:31 AM UTC
I may not have the most perfect physique,
but as I sit here,
having a beer and becoming aware of myself,
I realize that it is all that I need.
My neck, though it grows stiff on occasion,
is the perfect slope for the face of a lover.
My spine is long and narrow,
but crunched into itself
from years of compacting.
I want to reach inside my skin and set it free.
My shoulders are sloped, but sturdy,
and carry the weight of a thousand worlds.
One of my biceps is bigger than the other,
but that's okay,
its a natural phenomenon
and when I flex my right arm
it makes me feel strong, and powerful.
Capable.
I may not be thin enough
for you to count each tiny, delicate rib, but
I have a strong abdomen
and can do many sit-ups
or pull myself out from under you,
sit up suddenly to kiss you,
and anchor myself to the earth, yes -
My hips aren't as narrow as I'd like them to be,
but my quadriceps are strong and sinuous
My reflexes, feline
and my calves pure muscle,
I know
because ever since I turned thirteen,
I have been staring at them
after soccer practice in my cleats and shinguards
at the pool as the water drips off my legs and catches in the hairs
I've worked so hard to groom
in the morning as I stretch and caress their skin-
My feet
wiggle their toes into the moist, warm earth and keep me firm
and my eyes
pry into you,
always seeking
for things unknown
Number 53. Radical self-acceptance.
