you make me nauseous now
and your mouth tastes like fever.
you look me up and down—
you almost tell me i look skinny but you catch yourself.
you just say that i look good and lay down on my bed, waiting.
i don’t miss you anymore. i don’t want anything from anyone, for the first time in a decade.
all i need to know is that i can still be in control sometimes.
she says it’s obvious—that my whole body shakes and my eyes glow like moons. she says she can tell as soon as i sniffle. she asks me how long it’s been and i lie.
i convince myself i can be in control. i convince everyone else too.
Sep 4, 2022
Sep 4, 2022 at 6:36 AM UTC
you make me nauseous now
and your mouth tastes like fever.
you look me up and down—
you almost tell me i look skinny but you catch yourself.
you just say that i look good and lay down on my bed, waiting.
i don’t miss you anymore. i don’t want anything from anyone, for the first time in a decade.
all i need to know is that i can still be in control sometimes.
she says it’s obvious—that my whole body shakes and my eyes glow like moons. she says she can tell as soon as i sniffle. she asks me how long it’s been and i lie.
i convince myself i can be in control. i convince everyone else too.