What does it feel like?
When you hit rock bottom.
Does it hurt?
Should I be bleeding?
I do emotionally bleed.
That is to say, I am actively emotionally bleeding.
I have **** near lost almost everything.
Everyone.
That I have ever loved.
So, is this not yet rock bottom?
The surface here is gritty.
I can't reach through it.
Or above it.
It stinks here.
And I'm alone.
There are shadows of life gone by.
How do I recognize rock bottom?
Is it surreal?
Tangible?
How am I to know when I'm there?
I did hit my head on the way down,
Two or fourteen times.
I guess I will sit here.
And wait.
Looking up for the light that I'd always heard tell of.