Silence envelops my thoughts more than I care to admit
I know I wear that like armor, like it was earned somehow
But it is a small betrayal of what it truly feels like
Solitude while wonderful, can in fact, judge you back in your lesser moments
As though softly mocking the choice you happened to make
Not out of choice really, but the force of being yourself that turns the world against you
Silently, it erodes as a scab that reopens again and again
Annoyingly painful, irrefutable.
And yet, i blame myself alone. Abandoning what little hope I want to have in my 'choices'
I betray myself, only to feel that pain like poison - if only
to feel again.
4d ago
Jun 2, 2026 at 1:36 AM UTC
Silence envelops my thoughts more than I care to admit
I know I wear that like armor, like it was earned somehow
But it is a small betrayal of what it truly feels like
Solitude while wonderful, can in fact, judge you back in your lesser moments
As though softly mocking the choice you happened to make
Not out of choice really, but the force of being yourself that turns the world against you
Silently, it erodes as a scab that reopens again and again
Annoyingly painful, irrefutable.
And yet, i blame myself alone. Abandoning what little hope I want to have in my 'choices'
I betray myself, only to feel that pain like poison - if only
to feel again.
