I wish I had emotional stability.
My emotions come and go like waves,
and even though they carry no permanence,
it's inevitable;
they'll be back before I know it.
I don't want to die if it's not by suicide.
Right now, I have no intent to **** myself.
I want to live to do crazy things,
but I don't know how I'll feel in one month,
one week,
even one day.
Suddenly I'll be laying in bed,
wondering why I'm even still alive.
I'll be struck with another depressive episode
and writing my suicide notes,
texting my therapist,
"I just don't want to live anymore."
I wish I wasn't so unstable,
so ******* unpredictable.
I don't know how I'll be feeling in the next minute or hour,
which makes it hard to know what's coming next.
Aug 30, 2025
Aug 30, 2025 at 1:30 AM UTC
I wish I had emotional stability.
My emotions come and go like waves,
and even though they carry no permanence,
it's inevitable;
they'll be back before I know it.
I don't want to die if it's not by suicide.
Right now, I have no intent to **** myself.
I want to live to do crazy things,
but I don't know how I'll feel in one month,
one week,
even one day.
Suddenly I'll be laying in bed,
wondering why I'm even still alive.
I'll be struck with another depressive episode
and writing my suicide notes,
texting my therapist,
"I just don't want to live anymore."
I wish I wasn't so unstable,
so ******* unpredictable.
I don't know how I'll be feeling in the next minute or hour,
which makes it hard to know what's coming next.