All I want to do is make You proud
but I am stuck sitting on fences.
I can't seem to stand fast in the straight
So I stay, just getting splinters
I'm stuck somewhere between
who I am and who I want to be
And the answers are so clear
but they always seem out of reach
So I grasp at indecision
all the while my choices break Your heart
And every day I stay in the middle
the further we are...apart
But You never leave me
even though it kills You to watch me live
And when I come crawling back
all Your love You'll give
You'll coax me into restfulness
and I'll be rebuked by Your perfection
And my bruised and broken spirit
healed and resurrected
But again and again I let You down
living in foolish pride
While all the time you watch
my sin, in vain, I try and hide
I keep making my mistakes
and You keep picking me up off the floor
And how wretched I can be won't matter
Because You'll always love me more
Jan 23, 2013
Jan 23, 2013 at 9:42 AM UTC
All I want to do is make You proud
but I am stuck sitting on fences.
I can't seem to stand fast in the straight
So I stay, just getting splinters
I'm stuck somewhere between
who I am and who I want to be
And the answers are so clear
but they always seem out of reach
So I grasp at indecision
all the while my choices break Your heart
And every day I stay in the middle
the further we are...apart
But You never leave me
even though it kills You to watch me live
And when I come crawling back
all Your love You'll give
You'll coax me into restfulness
and I'll be rebuked by Your perfection
And my bruised and broken spirit
healed and resurrected
But again and again I let You down
living in foolish pride
While all the time you watch
my sin, in vain, I try and hide
I keep making my mistakes
and You keep picking me up off the floor
And how wretched I can be won't matter
Because You'll always love me more
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