In 6 years time
I’ll be out of my mind
Not crazy, just free
That’s who I thought I’d be
But it’s 6 years now
And I’m stepping out
My peace was put on hold
To destroy the lives I loved
It was like a nightmare wrapped in a dream
It was like a coma where I acted out things
Took a hit into a reality
That no one else was living
And now I’ve come out
I don’t want to go back in
But I’m sure the pain I felt then
Is nothing like it is
Take a break, run the shower
Dunk my head and close my ears
Hear the rumble of water dropping
Around me and on my skin
I don’t care it’s a weird place to go
But I let myself be simple
A koi fish in a pond
While the rain pours on
I can’t ask the question
Why’d this happen to me
Because why not, I guess
But it still feels like a cheat
It was like a jump from a skyscraper
That building is so tall
I didn’t know the long fall
I didn’t know the long fall
It felt like control
From someone that’s not my own
But the mess that was made
Is mine and mine alone
Mine and mine alone
Jun 5, 2025
Jun 5, 2025 at 9:42 AM UTC
In 6 years time
I’ll be out of my mind
Not crazy, just free
That’s who I thought I’d be
But it’s 6 years now
And I’m stepping out
My peace was put on hold
To destroy the lives I loved
It was like a nightmare wrapped in a dream
It was like a coma where I acted out things
Took a hit into a reality
That no one else was living
And now I’ve come out
I don’t want to go back in
But I’m sure the pain I felt then
Is nothing like it is
Take a break, run the shower
Dunk my head and close my ears
Hear the rumble of water dropping
Around me and on my skin
I don’t care it’s a weird place to go
But I let myself be simple
A koi fish in a pond
While the rain pours on
I can’t ask the question
Why’d this happen to me
Because why not, I guess
But it still feels like a cheat
It was like a jump from a skyscraper
That building is so tall
I didn’t know the long fall
I didn’t know the long fall
It felt like control
From someone that’s not my own
But the mess that was made
Is mine and mine alone
Mine and mine alone
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