i feel guilt where others feel nothing
for them
the moment passes by
like wind on their face
moments are as muffled as grocery store music
they hear the song playing
but continue on shopping, humming
for me
moments are not like wind
they are hail storms,
rain clouds,
fire alarms in the middle of the night
every message an amber alert
i can find meaning
where others find none
i ask questions
to things that have no answers
i check doors with no locks
and i’ve killed a million people
who have never existed
google is my best friend
and my worst enemy
i search and think and check
and think and check and search
until i am free from it’s grip
temporary breath inside of my lungs,
a long awaited exhale
a piece of peace
before it begins again
Feb 9
Feb 9, 2026 at 4:27 AM UTC
i feel guilt where others feel nothing
for them
the moment passes by
like wind on their face
moments are as muffled as grocery store music
they hear the song playing
but continue on shopping, humming
for me
moments are not like wind
they are hail storms,
rain clouds,
fire alarms in the middle of the night
every message an amber alert
i can find meaning
where others find none
i ask questions
to things that have no answers
i check doors with no locks
and i’ve killed a million people
who have never existed
google is my best friend
and my worst enemy
i search and think and check
and think and check and search
until i am free from it’s grip
temporary breath inside of my lungs,
a long awaited exhale
a piece of peace
before it begins again
