as i'm sitting in this car
going to places i don't want to go
with creepy silence ringing
my heart ache
hoping that this isn't it
how my life is
doesn't hold something important
memorable or happiness
doesn't write in someone's book
or thoughts
feeling hollow crawling in my skin
i wanted to puke
the desire in my stomach
screaming hunger
i die
but still breathing
part of me saying
it's okay
but that part of me
is just a reassurance for me to stay alive
but for reasons
i'm still searching
the thoughts of dying
keep coming
like waves in the ocean
that i'm so afraid of
why it's still coming
i pray so loud and i cried everytime
but why i got silent as a reply
why i'm still doubting
why i'm still asking why
if this is another rough day
let me get through it
with dry eyes and empty minds
because God knows how much this mind can do
Sep 11, 2018
Sep 11, 2018 at 12:29 PM UTC
as i'm sitting in this car
going to places i don't want to go
with creepy silence ringing
my heart ache
hoping that this isn't it
how my life is
doesn't hold something important
memorable or happiness
doesn't write in someone's book
or thoughts
feeling hollow crawling in my skin
i wanted to puke
the desire in my stomach
screaming hunger
i die
but still breathing
part of me saying
it's okay
but that part of me
is just a reassurance for me to stay alive
but for reasons
i'm still searching
the thoughts of dying
keep coming
like waves in the ocean
that i'm so afraid of
why it's still coming
i pray so loud and i cried everytime
but why i got silent as a reply
why i'm still doubting
why i'm still asking why
if this is another rough day
let me get through it
with dry eyes and empty minds
because God knows how much this mind can do
i wrote the first few sentences on a car ride and i finished it a few hours ago. hope u like it :)
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