I sit and cry as my wave of strength breaks against the rocky beach
Spreading thinner, shallower, weaker, until it can't keep moving
I feel a surge of dread as the great depths pull me inexorably backwards
And feel my hope flicker desperately with a dim and feeble light
The doubts whisper and scream that my life was never meant to be this good.
That I never deserved any of this.
That I'm not valuable enough to be happy.
That joy is ephemeral and despair is eternal.
I feel the curved teeth of the void trying to sink back in
Trying to drag me back, back, back.
I scream at the Void, tell him he can't have me
And my heart dreams that will be enough
My entire being makes a wish
Dreaming, begging the universe to manifest a place
Where all that is good might be a wellspring in my soul
And where despair might never be eternal, merely loud.
Nov 5, 2024
Nov 5, 2024 at 12:41 PM UTC
I sit and cry as my wave of strength breaks against the rocky beach
Spreading thinner, shallower, weaker, until it can't keep moving
I feel a surge of dread as the great depths pull me inexorably backwards
And feel my hope flicker desperately with a dim and feeble light
The doubts whisper and scream that my life was never meant to be this good.
That I never deserved any of this.
That I'm not valuable enough to be happy.
That joy is ephemeral and despair is eternal.
I feel the curved teeth of the void trying to sink back in
Trying to drag me back, back, back.
I scream at the Void, tell him he can't have me
And my heart dreams that will be enough
My entire being makes a wish
Dreaming, begging the universe to manifest a place
Where all that is good might be a wellspring in my soul
And where despair might never be eternal, merely loud.
I wrote this a little while back, but needed to find a few words to finish it, and they didn't come until today
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