It feels like a movie, as if life was plotted out to each varying detail. A movie I am not apart of but a spectators of sorts. Never seeming to join in the rolls we each play.
Slowing tearing at me, never knowing what role I am supposed to play. Almost making me feel as if my role is to watch and see, as this world slowly unravels around me.
Just watching, almost say studying the movements that each individual plays and the effects he or she makes. A movie I can not change, even if I tried with all my might.
But my worst fear of all, the one I am most afraid to see, is will my scene end or will this movie end before me.
Jan 6
Jan 6, 2026 at 11:14 PM UTC
It feels like a movie, as if life was plotted out to each varying detail. A movie I am not apart of but a spectators of sorts. Never seeming to join in the rolls we each play.
Slowing tearing at me, never knowing what role I am supposed to play. Almost making me feel as if my role is to watch and see, as this world slowly unravels around me.
Just watching, almost say studying the movements that each individual plays and the effects he or she makes. A movie I can not change, even if I tried with all my might.
But my worst fear of all, the one I am most afraid to see, is will my scene end or will this movie end before me.
Inspired by Emily Dickinson.
Written in my youth.