i don’t know how much
i relate to fortnight
until i am three drinks in
and your name
is the only word
i know
i was functioning
they said
she is fine
she is coping
what they didn’t see
was that the bottle
was the only thing
standing between me
and the truth of you
you were the reason
no one is here to blame
but your quiet treason
cut so much deeper
than anything loud
ever did
when she said
your wife bought us flowers
i felt something
i have no clean word for
because flowers mean forever
and forever
was supposed to be
a thing we whispered
to each other
one day you will belong
to a name that is not mine
and i will just be
the girl you used to reach for
in the dark
endless february
that is what you are
cold
and long
and somehow
i keep waking up in it
the pills made me feel
something close to okay
but okay
wore off
and you
never did
i loved you
past the point of sense
past the point of good for me
past the point
of no return
i still do
and it is the most
honest
devastating
thing
i have ever admitted
we feel each other
across every room
every mile
every silence
and still
you are so far from me
not in distance
but in the place
where it matters most
i am still here
still yours
in all the ways
that don’t count
and it is ruining me
beautifully
completely
and i let it
May 7
May 7, 2026 at 12:58 AM UTC
i don’t know how much
i relate to fortnight
until i am three drinks in
and your name
is the only word
i know
i was functioning
they said
she is fine
she is coping
what they didn’t see
was that the bottle
was the only thing
standing between me
and the truth of you
you were the reason
no one is here to blame
but your quiet treason
cut so much deeper
than anything loud
ever did
when she said
your wife bought us flowers
i felt something
i have no clean word for
because flowers mean forever
and forever
was supposed to be
a thing we whispered
to each other
one day you will belong
to a name that is not mine
and i will just be
the girl you used to reach for
in the dark
endless february
that is what you are
cold
and long
and somehow
i keep waking up in it
the pills made me feel
something close to okay
but okay
wore off
and you
never did
i loved you
past the point of sense
past the point of good for me
past the point
of no return
i still do
and it is the most
honest
devastating
thing
i have ever admitted
we feel each other
across every room
every mile
every silence
and still
you are so far from me
not in distance
but in the place
where it matters most
i am still here
still yours
in all the ways
that don’t count
and it is ruining me
beautifully
completely
and i let it
