When I was a kid,
And I still am in many senses,
I sat in my room
I stared into the dark and conjured up monsters
I was afraid of them, but they were welcome
If the could play nice
I read books while they watched and threatened me
I played guitar when they'd stop yelling
They would hop on my shoulders
And I'd feel their weight
So, I worked out to make my body stronger
These creatures would get bigger and stronger just like me
At one point they were so strong that I wanted to **** myself at 18
That thought had always lingered though
They dug me a hole and called it a grave
They said they were going to throw me in
And I was terrified by that
And I wanted that feeling to go away
I asked them if they wanted to go for a walk before that happened
Perplexed, they agreed
And we went along
I got to know them and why they wanted these horrible things
They were just as confused about themselves as I was about me
We stood there trying to make sense of us as a group
I realized that we were, in fact, a group
We always have been
We always will be
I'd forgotten that they were just as lonely as I was when I was in my room
I'd forgotten that they forced me to become stronger
I forgave them in that moment
A moment suspended in my reality
Aug 6, 2017
Aug 6, 2017 at 9:06 PM UTC
When I was a kid,
And I still am in many senses,
I sat in my room
I stared into the dark and conjured up monsters
I was afraid of them, but they were welcome
If the could play nice
I read books while they watched and threatened me
I played guitar when they'd stop yelling
They would hop on my shoulders
And I'd feel their weight
So, I worked out to make my body stronger
These creatures would get bigger and stronger just like me
At one point they were so strong that I wanted to **** myself at 18
That thought had always lingered though
They dug me a hole and called it a grave
They said they were going to throw me in
And I was terrified by that
And I wanted that feeling to go away
I asked them if they wanted to go for a walk before that happened
Perplexed, they agreed
And we went along
I got to know them and why they wanted these horrible things
They were just as confused about themselves as I was about me
We stood there trying to make sense of us as a group
I realized that we were, in fact, a group
We always have been
We always will be
I'd forgotten that they were just as lonely as I was when I was in my room
I'd forgotten that they forced me to become stronger
I forgave them in that moment
A moment suspended in my reality
