Give me words
Until they mean nothing
Wrap me in their meaninglessness
Until I feel nothing
The only thing that's real
Is your energy
The way you walk with
Uneven footsteps and laugh
Too often at unsaid jokes
Shakes my core
I'm coming undone
Too much weight to carry
I am changed
People notice
Intelligence breeds anxiety
Or is it ignorance?
Which one overtakes me?
Which energy
chooses me?
Clings like a shadow to my back?
Claws and controls me?
Maybe I'll find what I'm looking for
In New Orleans' haunted
Purple gold walls
Streets slick with death
Drenched in a
Clownish haze,
Maybe I'll weep there,
Let it soak
I drank all your shame while I was
Sleeping
You left greasy fingerprints down
My back and they
Spread across my stomach like
Wildfire, my branches
Split like black veins cursed
Coursing with black blood
Evil
What voice speaks inside of me
Now?
She says I've lived in too many places
Too many energies have made love to me
Where is my identity?
Which voice do I know is mine?
An unsung chorus:
Bathe in salt, she says
Cleanse yourself in sunlight
Stay alone
So why am I so afraid to be alone?