I told them i wasnt the one they should fear,
and honestly i feel so bad that i even ended up here.
Its like i didnt ask to be told.
I just was. And that grew so old.
I cant fathom a day spent unwell, and yet if you looked at the world i live in, you couldnt tell.
I remember when the words would flow.
Like a boat my thoughts would tow along the heart i felt before. Once i told myself i had to let it go, i devoured it and wanted more.
I ate the sadness and the glee,
so desperately trying to be free.
And now i wake up more confused,
because instead of devouring the monsters,
instead i let them loose.
Away from me, but towards me. They chased me, and i chased me.
My brain formed a dichotomy, between who i thought i was and who i was to be.
Naturally karma bites you in the ***
as ive learned scraping scars up from my past.
Todays bitters become tomorrows worries,
and my file cabinet of memories pile up high of sorrys.
Aug 18, 2020
Aug 18, 2020 at 1:57 PM UTC
I told them i wasnt the one they should fear,
and honestly i feel so bad that i even ended up here.
Its like i didnt ask to be told.
I just was. And that grew so old.
I cant fathom a day spent unwell, and yet if you looked at the world i live in, you couldnt tell.
I remember when the words would flow.
Like a boat my thoughts would tow along the heart i felt before. Once i told myself i had to let it go, i devoured it and wanted more.
I ate the sadness and the glee,
so desperately trying to be free.
And now i wake up more confused,
because instead of devouring the monsters,
instead i let them loose.
Away from me, but towards me. They chased me, and i chased me.
My brain formed a dichotomy, between who i thought i was and who i was to be.
Naturally karma bites you in the ***
as ive learned scraping scars up from my past.
Todays bitters become tomorrows worries,
and my file cabinet of memories pile up high of sorrys.
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