Fear is keeping me awake
It slowly creeps up beside me
makes my heart race
my pulse quicken
So that I'm at a loss of what to do
where to go from here
And I can't comprehend what might happen
if one day you cease to be in my life
to care how I feel
at all
This fear is forbidding me from sleeping
suffocating me
preventing me from thinking clearly
breathing properly
causing my thoughts to scatter
become irrational
incoherent
strangling my heart
I am too scared to sleep because I might dream
about you, or rather a lack thereof
a world in which you don't care
you don't exist
a time in which I am not on your mind
in your heart
This fear is too much for me to bear tonight
sort through in my mind
I can't quite explain why I am feeling this way
I seem to need you so much
your hand in mine
heart for life
I need you to hear this
understand me
One thing that I know for certain is that
I need for you to let me know how you truly feel about me
where we're going to go from here
what is going on with you
with me
between us
if you want me to leave you alone
let you go
give up hope
This fear is keeping me awake.