I.
You always knew
the lies I've taught myself to believe
would never be good enough for him
We have the same smile
he is the last angel that can save
me
Love, I have no easy answers for you
I bury questions with every poem
but there is never enough dirt.
The ugliness behind our
pretty faces
burns holes
in the soul
and that's the first poem
I wrote about you that
wish I could burn
because I see myself
in your eyes and I wish
I could disappear from
the mirror
I don't
hate you.
I can't.
I
won't.
II.
my sweet Ollie,
your face looks like mine
you can see it in the eyes
especially when you smile
Have you discovered
children have a way
of noticing things
that are there,
seeing shapes
and shadows
that aren't?
There are monsters in the dark
but do not be afraid
I am there too.
I thought I
past the would,
could, should be
but there are no stars
in the sky and these
gnarled branches
won't give me release
and the future is the same as it always was
some things
cannot be hidden
cannot be undone
cannot be found
cannot be repaired
If I could still believe
in God and say a prayer
I would ask that he would read
these words you can't see yet
whisper them into your ear
so that with every heart beat
you have an answer for why we're
here
and one day
when you read this
know that I loved you
know that I missed you
There is still sunshine longing
to kiss your forehead
Don't sleep
until the day
is yours
and only yours.
My son, trust me
when I tell you,
there is nothing to fear
in the dark.
Fear the Heart.
BG-4/11/17
Apr 11, 2017
Apr 11, 2017 at 8:42 PM UTC
I.
You always knew
the lies I've taught myself to believe
would never be good enough for him
We have the same smile
he is the last angel that can save
me
Love, I have no easy answers for you
I bury questions with every poem
but there is never enough dirt.
The ugliness behind our
pretty faces
burns holes
in the soul
and that's the first poem
I wrote about you that
wish I could burn
because I see myself
in your eyes and I wish
I could disappear from
the mirror
I don't
hate you.
I can't.
I
won't.
II.
my sweet Ollie,
your face looks like mine
you can see it in the eyes
especially when you smile
Have you discovered
children have a way
of noticing things
that are there,
seeing shapes
and shadows
that aren't?
There are monsters in the dark
but do not be afraid
I am there too.
I thought I
past the would,
could, should be
but there are no stars
in the sky and these
gnarled branches
won't give me release
and the future is the same as it always was
some things
cannot be hidden
cannot be undone
cannot be found
cannot be repaired
If I could still believe
in God and say a prayer
I would ask that he would read
these words you can't see yet
whisper them into your ear
so that with every heart beat
you have an answer for why we're
here
and one day
when you read this
know that I loved you
know that I missed you
There is still sunshine longing
to kiss your forehead
Don't sleep
until the day
is yours
and only yours.
My son, trust me
when I tell you,
there is nothing to fear
in the dark.
Fear the Heart.
BG-4/11/17
