I often wonder if there are ghosts
that watch me
as I reach out to the other side of the bed,
laugh,
and whisper things,
pretending you're still there
Sometimes I play a game in my head
where I hit the play button on my life
and you have no choice but to watch from wherever you are
as I surround myself with things
I know would make you miss me
Do you ever think that when you dream of someone,
they can feel it
and maybe they wake up remembering you somehow?
I doubt you could stand waking up
with my name in your mouth each morning
Not when you've earned the right to forget it
Love and hate are independent sentiments
but somehow with you they're interchangeable
I've read somewhere about the science behind our memories,
how they paint a pretty picture
of a person we can no longer have,
but underneath all the layers of thick paint are the realities;
the uncertainty,
the mean streaks,
the resentment,
all in ***** splashes of muddy brown and red
The problem is that
I've been scrubbing at your painting in my head
until my hands go numb
and I still only see all my favorite colors
Aug 21, 2017
Aug 21, 2017 at 8:16 PM UTC
I often wonder if there are ghosts
that watch me
as I reach out to the other side of the bed,
laugh,
and whisper things,
pretending you're still there
Sometimes I play a game in my head
where I hit the play button on my life
and you have no choice but to watch from wherever you are
as I surround myself with things
I know would make you miss me
Do you ever think that when you dream of someone,
they can feel it
and maybe they wake up remembering you somehow?
I doubt you could stand waking up
with my name in your mouth each morning
Not when you've earned the right to forget it
Love and hate are independent sentiments
but somehow with you they're interchangeable
I've read somewhere about the science behind our memories,
how they paint a pretty picture
of a person we can no longer have,
but underneath all the layers of thick paint are the realities;
the uncertainty,
the mean streaks,
the resentment,
all in ***** splashes of muddy brown and red
The problem is that
I've been scrubbing at your painting in my head
until my hands go numb
and I still only see all my favorite colors
