it's like suddenly
the dam has burst
and the words
won't stop tumbling
and isn't that what
you get after
a drought
the flood?
my scalp itches
but i just washed my hair
it itches
begging me to do something
a dozen half-baked
thoughts accumulated
a blank space in the
narrative of my life
to recap
what i missed
the things i
never wrote about
a toxic job and quitting it
watching my friends
and former friends
get married
watching myself
get married
that time when
i almost died
the constant struggle
between myself
and the body i so
tenuously inhabit
my boring job
where i sit at a desk
there's a lot i haven't
let myself think about
and maybe now
is the time to do so
my doctor told me last
time i went to see her that
she understands why i don't
want therapy right now
therapy is just a tool
that doesn't work for everyone
(it certainly works
if you find the right
therapist and the odds
align to keep them
but i've done this before
and i will do it again)
so i should do
something that
restores my soul
to maintain myself
and i must have forgotten
how calming
it is to put things into
words on a page
in lines and rows
to let myself happen
hate that it took me
this long to realize
what i'd
been missing
after the drought
comes the flood
Sep 6, 2022
Sep 6, 2022 at 8:29 AM UTC
it's like suddenly
the dam has burst
and the words
won't stop tumbling
and isn't that what
you get after
a drought
the flood?
my scalp itches
but i just washed my hair
it itches
begging me to do something
a dozen half-baked
thoughts accumulated
a blank space in the
narrative of my life
to recap
what i missed
the things i
never wrote about
a toxic job and quitting it
watching my friends
and former friends
get married
watching myself
get married
that time when
i almost died
the constant struggle
between myself
and the body i so
tenuously inhabit
my boring job
where i sit at a desk
there's a lot i haven't
let myself think about
and maybe now
is the time to do so
my doctor told me last
time i went to see her that
she understands why i don't
want therapy right now
therapy is just a tool
that doesn't work for everyone
(it certainly works
if you find the right
therapist and the odds
align to keep them
but i've done this before
and i will do it again)
so i should do
something that
restores my soul
to maintain myself
and i must have forgotten
how calming
it is to put things into
words on a page
in lines and rows
to let myself happen
hate that it took me
this long to realize
what i'd
been missing
after the drought
comes the flood
copyright 9/6/22 by b. e. mccomb