i smiled when spoken to.
nodded at the right times.
dressed myself in fabric
heavy with approval,
let them rewrite my name
in letters i could not read.
was this what they meant by righteousness?
i stepped in line,
shoulder to shoulder,
head to the ground,
voice swallowed whole.
(do not stray.
do not ask.
do not falter.)
but when i prayed,
i found no voice.
when i knelt,
i found no floor.
when i searched,
i found only mirrors,
only echoes,
only dust.
was this what they meant by devotion?
they said,
we will make you whole.
we will scrape away the excess.
we will leave nothing but light.
so i let them take,
let them pare me down,
let them erase,
let them shape.
(smaller,
softer,
easier.)
but when i looked for myself,
i found nothing.
when i called my name,
there was no answer.
when i reached out,
my hands met air.
was this what they meant by salvation?
Apr 2, 2025
Apr 2, 2025 at 10:57 AM UTC
i smiled when spoken to.
nodded at the right times.
dressed myself in fabric
heavy with approval,
let them rewrite my name
in letters i could not read.
was this what they meant by righteousness?
i stepped in line,
shoulder to shoulder,
head to the ground,
voice swallowed whole.
(do not stray.
do not ask.
do not falter.)
but when i prayed,
i found no voice.
when i knelt,
i found no floor.
when i searched,
i found only mirrors,
only echoes,
only dust.
was this what they meant by devotion?
they said,
we will make you whole.
we will scrape away the excess.
we will leave nothing but light.
so i let them take,
let them pare me down,
let them erase,
let them shape.
(smaller,
softer,
easier.)
but when i looked for myself,
i found nothing.
when i called my name,
there was no answer.
when i reached out,
my hands met air.
was this what they meant by salvation?