when i go
to picture myself
in my head,
not what i look like
but who i am,
and when i go
to compare that
to the images of my past,
im confronted
by just how much
ive changed.
i used to see myself
as a shy boy,
small,
unimposing,
supporting cast
to the world around.
i rode
in the wake
of my friends
and my family,
kept above the waves
by nothing but
momentum.
but now,
when i look
at who i am
today,
things are different.
im not the same
shy boy i was before.
im more confident
than ive ever been,
in part because
ive come to see
that 'boy' isnt who i am
at all.
i see a knight
in well worn armor,
beautiful,
tall,
starring role
in a story all my own.
i no longer
need momentum
to stay above the waves.
no longer
do i ride the wake
of those around me.
i drive
my own boat
my own way
equal to those beside me.
when i go
to picture
who i was before,
i see not
a scrapbook,
full of memories
to cling to.
i see
a field,
burned flat,
ready for new seeds
to take root.
Aug 31, 2020
Aug 31, 2020 at 1:06 AM UTC
when i go
to picture myself
in my head,
not what i look like
but who i am,
and when i go
to compare that
to the images of my past,
im confronted
by just how much
ive changed.
i used to see myself
as a shy boy,
small,
unimposing,
supporting cast
to the world around.
i rode
in the wake
of my friends
and my family,
kept above the waves
by nothing but
momentum.
but now,
when i look
at who i am
today,
things are different.
im not the same
shy boy i was before.
im more confident
than ive ever been,
in part because
ive come to see
that 'boy' isnt who i am
at all.
i see a knight
in well worn armor,
beautiful,
tall,
starring role
in a story all my own.
i no longer
need momentum
to stay above the waves.
no longer
do i ride the wake
of those around me.
i drive
my own boat
my own way
equal to those beside me.
when i go
to picture
who i was before,
i see not
a scrapbook,
full of memories
to cling to.
i see
a field,
burned flat,
ready for new seeds
to take root.