I'm still trying
to kiss girls
In the doorways
Of the bathrooms
Of these same few bars
While their boyfriends
Wait intrepidly outside
Since wanting something
I know I can’t have
Has always been a source
Of undeniable temptation.
I’m still binge eating
and chain smoking
and getting ******
Since gaining weight
And the mounting pressure,
Of the thickening
soot in my lungs
Seem to be the only things
that feel similar
To the stagnation
that accompanies
Filler friends
and dead end outings
That leave me pouting
Not in the corner
But just off center
C.e.M. 4.10.15
edit 4.18.17
Apr 20, 2015
Apr 20, 2015 at 3:26 PM UTC
I'm still trying
to kiss girls
In the doorways
Of the bathrooms
Of these same few bars
While their boyfriends
Wait intrepidly outside
Since wanting something
I know I can’t have
Has always been a source
Of undeniable temptation.
I’m still binge eating
and chain smoking
and getting ******
Since gaining weight
And the mounting pressure,
Of the thickening
soot in my lungs
Seem to be the only things
that feel similar
To the stagnation
that accompanies
Filler friends
and dead end outings
That leave me pouting
Not in the corner
But just off center
C.e.M. 4.10.15
edit 4.18.17
This ones rough guys. I've lost my touch lately.
