Almost twenty years later
starting to gain ground
Understanding comes bitter and sweet
always believeing I was ahead
foolish
always believing I was so strong
denial
always avoiding the issue
truth
Truth is
fear has led to defeat
Harsh times
led to retreat
For no other reason than fear
Bigger problem is letting go
Inexperience still wallows in the cavity my being takes hold
Smothering in fear of losing
Holding so tight
everything is brusing
Bones so tense
its confusing
Anxious over absolutely nothing
So fucking needy it is crazy
Got too much time
been around people too long
forgot that it is okay to be alone
May 27, 2013
May 27, 2013 at 10:33 PM UTC
Almost twenty years later
starting to gain ground
Understanding comes bitter and sweet
always believeing I was ahead
foolish
always believing I was so strong
denial
always avoiding the issue
truth
Truth is
fear has led to defeat
Harsh times
led to retreat
For no other reason than fear
Bigger problem is letting go
Inexperience still wallows in the cavity my being takes hold
Smothering in fear of losing
Holding so tight
everything is brusing
Bones so tense
its confusing
Anxious over absolutely nothing
So fucking needy it is crazy
Got too much time
been around people too long
forgot that it is okay to be alone
