I’ve been angry so
so long
despite the cost,
it’s familiar warm
consistency
keeps biting back
each time letting go
crosses my mind.
Maybe it’s a worse version of myself
grotesquely missed
in those mornings I wake
free from fear.
Secure knowing
somebody can still
my rattling body
when I'm too bleary eyed
to spend another moment in the carpool lane.
Miracles,
no matter how well laid
slough back
toward a haze more binding
than comfortable.
Just close the door
when there's nothing left to be.
May 26, 2021
May 26, 2021 at 8:49 PM UTC
I’ve been angry so
so long
despite the cost,
it’s familiar warm
consistency
keeps biting back
each time letting go
crosses my mind.
Maybe it’s a worse version of myself
grotesquely missed
in those mornings I wake
free from fear.
Secure knowing
somebody can still
my rattling body
when I'm too bleary eyed
to spend another moment in the carpool lane.
Miracles,
no matter how well laid
slough back
toward a haze more binding
than comfortable.
Just close the door
when there's nothing left to be.
