Why is my heart tight
From a 7 letter word
A 7 letter word
From 2 years ago
My stomach is twisting
My head is spinning
I feel the self hate
Pathetic little girl
Letting the pain come back
A 7 letter word
Is all it took
So pathetic
To let it bring the hurt back
You're supposed to be better
To put it in a grave
And let it die instead of you
But here I am
Sharp pains of guilt
And shame
My body feels weak
Heavy like lead
From a simple 7 letter word
I can feel the numb return
I can feel the pain again
A trigger
A stupid 7 letter word
Is a trigger for me
It awakens the beast
And it reminds me
How close I always am
To falling back into the grips
Of the monster inside
No matter how drugged I am
With antidepressants
And mood stabilizers
That 7 letter word
Brings back the pain
The numb
The memories of 2 years ago
Memories of Roger's Memorial
Of the fear
Of the hate
They come rushing back
Because of a 7 letter word
That has affected so many
A 7 letter word
That once had no meaning to me
But now terrifies me
A 7 letter word
A simple 7 letter word
Suicide
Feb 14, 2016
Feb 14, 2016 at 1:25 PM UTC
Why is my heart tight
From a 7 letter word
A 7 letter word
From 2 years ago
My stomach is twisting
My head is spinning
I feel the self hate
Pathetic little girl
Letting the pain come back
A 7 letter word
Is all it took
So pathetic
To let it bring the hurt back
You're supposed to be better
To put it in a grave
And let it die instead of you
But here I am
Sharp pains of guilt
And shame
My body feels weak
Heavy like lead
From a simple 7 letter word
I can feel the numb return
I can feel the pain again
A trigger
A stupid 7 letter word
Is a trigger for me
It awakens the beast
And it reminds me
How close I always am
To falling back into the grips
Of the monster inside
No matter how drugged I am
With antidepressants
And mood stabilizers
That 7 letter word
Brings back the pain
The numb
The memories of 2 years ago
Memories of Roger's Memorial
Of the fear
Of the hate
They come rushing back
Because of a 7 letter word
That has affected so many
A 7 letter word
That once had no meaning to me
But now terrifies me
A 7 letter word
A simple 7 letter word
Suicide
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