I don’t want to do this
But I cant help to feel the need
The need to pick it up
And feel something
I don’t want to lose myself
In the distance
Or the fog of pain
I sit here senseless
And feel the way I do.
I cant help but lose touch
Lose myself in this chaos
As I blinded it
As hindered it useless
By killing myself
Inside.
But now you came along
Opened the creeks
The I kept shut
And I forgot.
The weight of my world
Is upon me and here
I stand
I sit
I lie
Broken
I stare somewhere
Into something
That I used to have
But lost a long time ago
I look here and there
And am tempted
By the sight
Of my loss
I think to myself
What a relief it would be
To slowly drip
And watch it all waste away
I think to myself can I possibly
Sleep tonight
Or will the nightmares claim me
Once more as they have
Will I lose myself
In the process
I cant help but feel this aching need
To shed all I have
To cut my ridges away
To cut it all
And bear my pain
To want to die,
Only when you’re alive
To want to die
Only when you have something worth living for.