Why am I fat?

randirabid Poems

I'm fat because my first boyfriend in seventh grade broke up with me for another girl and called me a fat ugly ***** over and over. I'm fat because my best friend joined in and wouldn't lend me his jacket when I was cold because he'd rather give it to another girl because she was skinnier. I'm fat because I'm too lazy to work out since depression hit. I'm fat because I stress eat and have a bad sweet tooth. I'm fat because my last ex wouldn't disagree when I asked him if I was fat. I'm fat because he wouldn't let me eat. I'm fat because he would see the plate of food and dramatically say, again? I'm fat because I carved it into my stomach. I'm fat because I have horrible mood swings and panic attacks and had to be put on antidepressants and birth control. I'm fat because I don't look in the mirror anymore unless it's above my chest. I'm fat because that's what I think everyone whispers when I'm not looking because I'm an anxious paranoid freak. I'm fat because my parents say I shouldn't eat this or that. I'm fat because I can't fit in my old pair of jeans. I'm fat because I've always been scared to wear a bikini, now I refuse. I'm fat because my mom says tells me she is fat, when she weighs less than me already. I'm fat because no guys will look at me anymore. I'm fat and I don't know what to do anymore.