I am at a place I did not expect,
after being so very circumspect
I find that I can inspect.
I find that I am surprisingly stable
I did not think I was able
The myriad voices have fallen like Babel.
I no longer feel sadness at the rejection
Gone is the feeling of abject dejection
the feeling of being under subjection.
I don't, I realize with surprise, miss us
I can say simply where I am without fuss
You wanted others, I did not, no need to cuss.
Life is in the moment and forever,
Everything is open - never say never
I will use my past like a lever.
I am prying open a future life
Dont know if it involves (another) wife
But I will assiduously avoid new strife.
Thank you for reading my rage
as I poured my heart out on the page
now I think I am free from any cage.
Divorce is more challenging than dying
because the source of all your crying
Is still there and seemingly flying.
But what happens to the Other
is not your concern my sister and brother
To be fully alive you don't need another.
I hope that I may find another love
but right now I let my care go like a dove
and parent and friend and float above.
Jul 26, 2019
Jul 26, 2019 at 5:19 AM UTC
I am at a place I did not expect,
after being so very circumspect
I find that I can inspect.
I find that I am surprisingly stable
I did not think I was able
The myriad voices have fallen like Babel.
I no longer feel sadness at the rejection
Gone is the feeling of abject dejection
the feeling of being under subjection.
I don't, I realize with surprise, miss us
I can say simply where I am without fuss
You wanted others, I did not, no need to cuss.
Life is in the moment and forever,
Everything is open - never say never
I will use my past like a lever.
I am prying open a future life
Dont know if it involves (another) wife
But I will assiduously avoid new strife.
Thank you for reading my rage
as I poured my heart out on the page
now I think I am free from any cage.
Divorce is more challenging than dying
because the source of all your crying
Is still there and seemingly flying.
But what happens to the Other
is not your concern my sister and brother
To be fully alive you don't need another.
I hope that I may find another love
but right now I let my care go like a dove
and parent and friend and float above.