There is something wrong with me,
I want to see the scale.
To gorge myself on ignorant
Imaginations.
Like a boy w blue eyes and blonde hair.
Yet,
For now I succumb to the troubles of sugar,
And the trials of sweets.
That blacken the whites of my
"Perfect teeth."
I'm ravenous and hungry
For something not good for me-
Like the lost daydreams of an altered reality.
I see the effects on my mind and my body,
I can pinch the moments where my thoughts have escaped.
Or my stomach,
which
I so lovingly hate.
Or my cheeks and my neck
Or with everything else.
What is my worth?
I always feel third, forth.
But I wanna be first
Better, beautiful, brainy
So I can smile
Successfully happy.
I eat up all my hatred and envy,
I feed this constant- lonely anxiety.
Save me, save me, save me
Save me please.
I've tried and I've failed
I know what i need.
You to get me through all of this.
Tell me I can do it.
Tell me it's going to be okay
Help me believe in myself
Set me free.
Help me become,
The real, true me.
Feb 14, 2020
Feb 14, 2020 at 2:19 PM UTC
There is something wrong with me,
I want to see the scale.
To gorge myself on ignorant
Imaginations.
Like a boy w blue eyes and blonde hair.
Yet,
For now I succumb to the troubles of sugar,
And the trials of sweets.
That blacken the whites of my
"Perfect teeth."
I'm ravenous and hungry
For something not good for me-
Like the lost daydreams of an altered reality.
I see the effects on my mind and my body,
I can pinch the moments where my thoughts have escaped.
Or my stomach,
which
I so lovingly hate.
Or my cheeks and my neck
Or with everything else.
What is my worth?
I always feel third, forth.
But I wanna be first
Better, beautiful, brainy
So I can smile
Successfully happy.
I eat up all my hatred and envy,
I feed this constant- lonely anxiety.
Save me, save me, save me
Save me please.
I've tried and I've failed
I know what i need.
You to get me through all of this.
Tell me I can do it.
Tell me it's going to be okay
Help me believe in myself
Set me free.
Help me become,
The real, true me.
