With every new chapter comes a new lesson in life
That new lesson was you, and I hate that the universe gave you to me at such an odd time in life
Great things always come when they are least expected
And you were one of the greatest things that ever happened to me
I was so broken and jaded that I would brush off every man who approached me
Smiley, you can’t fix broken and jaded but you can help to soften the blow
The month and a half we had together was wonderful and I learned a lot
And now that you’ve left I feel like I’ve lost my best friend
Every little thing around the apartment reminds me of you
Your smell, your food, your sponge
A small sense of nostalgia when I lay down in the bed we shared
I never thought I would take it quite this hard
Preparing myself for weeks knowing you were going to leave
And here I am wearing the wool socks you left behind and finishing a bottle of wine
I am tempted to throw out everything you left for me just so I don’t have to go through all the pain
The memories in my head are painful enough
But I’m going to smile the whole way through
Because the friendship we have is so good.
I remember the first time I cried in front of you
I felt like a piece of **** for showing you emotion
For saying yes, I do care with my tears of frustration
And I will always remember you as the man who truly understood me
Both sexually and emotionally
You taught me to be comfortable with my sexuality and how to use it
You made me more confident in whom I am as a woman because you respected me
Even when I was frustrated with you for being irresponsible, you always did something to make up for it
As a friend and as a lover I cannot thank you enough for helping me
Walking me through such an awkward time in my life
The universe gives us what we need when we need it
Apparently, I needed you…