I.
First it’s a look shared through the glass
A window between us
The feeling that passes through me
When I watch him explain the impossible
And make it look easy
Then it’s the wondering that overtakes me
Behind the counter where I’ve lost myself in thought
Surrounded by books that won’t tell me
If he’s thinking of me too
It’s the ache that comes from longing
To hear the sound of his voice
But I’m too scared to call
Unless I’m already drunk
It’s that feeling in the pit of my stomach
Everyone calls butterflies, but really
It feels like too much, just so much
It happens when you start to fall.
And it’s a slap in my own the face
As I hide deeper inside of myself
Because he is beautiful
And I am all sharp edges
He is enough
But I am just not ready
II.
I always find myself going back to you
When I imagine how I wanted it to be
And what I wish I had said
It’s so strange to be here
So many years later
Still wondering if it was you all along
We shared this kiss once
You and I
Once of those steamy
Spur of the moment
You only live once type of deals
I know you remember it too
My heart hurts just thinking about it because
It was always such a blur of wrongtimewrongplacewrongsomething
Between me and you
I guess I never stopped being too scared to call
Unless I was already drunk
It’s been years since I heard your voice
But I am haunted
Jul 18, 2021
Jul 18, 2021 at 10:06 PM UTC
I.
First it’s a look shared through the glass
A window between us
The feeling that passes through me
When I watch him explain the impossible
And make it look easy
Then it’s the wondering that overtakes me
Behind the counter where I’ve lost myself in thought
Surrounded by books that won’t tell me
If he’s thinking of me too
It’s the ache that comes from longing
To hear the sound of his voice
But I’m too scared to call
Unless I’m already drunk
It’s that feeling in the pit of my stomach
Everyone calls butterflies, but really
It feels like too much, just so much
It happens when you start to fall.
And it’s a slap in my own the face
As I hide deeper inside of myself
Because he is beautiful
And I am all sharp edges
He is enough
But I am just not ready
II.
I always find myself going back to you
When I imagine how I wanted it to be
And what I wish I had said
It’s so strange to be here
So many years later
Still wondering if it was you all along
We shared this kiss once
You and I
Once of those steamy
Spur of the moment
You only live once type of deals
I know you remember it too
My heart hurts just thinking about it because
It was always such a blur of wrongtimewrongplacewrongsomething
Between me and you
I guess I never stopped being too scared to call
Unless I was already drunk
It’s been years since I heard your voice
But I am haunted
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