I'm not gonna lie. I feel like that was a mistake..
To stir up all that **** and to promptly run away.
Maybe I was a little hasty; should've given it more thought.
Maybe I should've remembered the past; all the lessons it taught.
But do I reach out and admit it? Or continue on as is...
Do I ask you for help? Or keep struggling within....
How do I tell the others that I've pushed you out and hidden?
They'd know it was a bad idea without knowing any of what I've written.
Can I even say I'm sorry, confused, lost, and need help?
I'm not sure I can even admit it to you. Much less, to myself.
I want to be ten feet tall and bullet proof. But deep down, I know I can't.
I want to be a testament to His love and mercy. Deep down, I feel I can't.
Help? Please? I know that I was wrong. I didn't need to go..
I'm just so confused. But I know you can help. And that's all I need to know.