It isn't what we had that keeps me up at night
Those memories will stay with me
It's what might have been, but drifted away
All those things that will never be
There is a resounding finality to it
Sending chills down my spine
A chapter closed, but not fully written
A heart not fully mine
I long for you in the deepest night
when self-deception is not a choice
I'd like to say I'm over you
But I don't have a voice
The words choke up, blocked by some
burst of feelings in my throat
Closed eyes, the world is gone
I am on the sea, a lonely boat
Sailing away from you, and your world
I'll never come back home
Your face follows me across the blue
I realize it's all I'll ever know
I wanted so much more! you and I
We were what should have been
And I long inside the mystery
That will never have an end