the forgiveness came
suddenly like the break of a day so bright
and so hot in springtime mess,
like that first blazing lashing
of sunshine so brazen upon wintered flesh
upon skin, gentle
like the sound of a lamb’s feet on soft mud,
skin, white
and cool as milk.
it came with a perfect and welcomed brutality-
burning slowly,
definitely,
defiantly.
forgiveness came,
so enormous with sadness-
a sense of loss profound as the bruised velveteen of a
sky ripe
with summer heat and
the full, squeaky sound
of june-happy,
beer-drunk teenagers
biting one another’s lips in dewy fields.
the forgiveness came so clear
it tasted in my mouth like penny bile.
it pulled in my heart like a small perfect spoon pulls
through honey sat uncovered three days too long
on a windowsill
the ripples folding over themselves slowly,
grey and golden with sugar.
the forgiveness changed me right then, as
the loss of you changed
me before.
it struck me.
it was holy.
it carved something
smaller, newer, smoother
out of this life.
a glimpse of my core
was revealed then.
the perfect part of me-the finest grain
the purest fragrance
most sensual to the touch
my core-what I grew from, what my life swirls around
my core-what breaks light into fractals, what is heavy for it’s size
what is pure and secret in me
through this forgiveness is unveiled
for the first time
since I was born.
Feb 3, 2012
Feb 3, 2012 at 2:49 PM UTC
the forgiveness came
suddenly like the break of a day so bright
and so hot in springtime mess,
like that first blazing lashing
of sunshine so brazen upon wintered flesh
upon skin, gentle
like the sound of a lamb’s feet on soft mud,
skin, white
and cool as milk.
it came with a perfect and welcomed brutality-
burning slowly,
definitely,
defiantly.
forgiveness came,
so enormous with sadness-
a sense of loss profound as the bruised velveteen of a
sky ripe
with summer heat and
the full, squeaky sound
of june-happy,
beer-drunk teenagers
biting one another’s lips in dewy fields.
the forgiveness came so clear
it tasted in my mouth like penny bile.
it pulled in my heart like a small perfect spoon pulls
through honey sat uncovered three days too long
on a windowsill
the ripples folding over themselves slowly,
grey and golden with sugar.
the forgiveness changed me right then, as
the loss of you changed
me before.
it struck me.
it was holy.
it carved something
smaller, newer, smoother
out of this life.
a glimpse of my core
was revealed then.
the perfect part of me-the finest grain
the purest fragrance
most sensual to the touch
my core-what I grew from, what my life swirls around
my core-what breaks light into fractals, what is heavy for it’s size
what is pure and secret in me
through this forgiveness is unveiled
for the first time
since I was born.
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