The sun was still warm
through her bedroom window
her sister played
the Ricky Nelson record
over and over
which came through
the wall
Elaine leaned her back
against the door
and looked at the bed
with the Teddy Bear
her parents had bought her
years before
her mother down stairs
said about bringing
down the soiled washing
she walked towards the window
and looked out
the garden was tidy
her father
had worked hard on it
the green house sparkled
in the afternoon sun
she walked to the dressing table
and stared at herself
was she a frump?
the girls in class
said she was
even some of the boys
who bothered
to talk to her at all
said she was
she pushed back
her dark hair
from her eyes
and stared hard
the boy John liked her
and after the kiss
the other day
she felt unsure
when she was with him
he seemed friendly
he seemed a little odd
when he talked
of birds and butterflies
she sighed and took off
her school blouse
and dropped it
on the bed
then unzipped
her school skirt
and let it fall
to the floor
she was frumpy
she thought
looking at herself
standing there
her reflection
in the mirror
wearing the small bra
and green underwear
she closed her eyes
the Ricky Nelson voice
echoing still
the memory of John's kiss
on the edge of her mind
she pressed
her lips together
pouted
pretended he
had kissed her again
his lips pressing
she ran her tongue
over her lower lip
back and forth
side to side
she turned away
from the mirror
her back to it
she opened her eyes
and embraced herself
her fingers visible
over one shoulder
and at the side
of her ribs
she pretended
they were his
fingers visible
his arms
holding her
she kissed
her shoulder
it was just pretence
she didn't think
she could face
the real thing
not his lips there
not his hands
embracing her
she walked to her bed
and lay down
staring at the ceiling
unsure what she felt
or what it was
her 14 year old body
was hotly feeling.
Jul 31, 2014
Jul 31, 2014 at 11:39 AM UTC
The sun was still warm
through her bedroom window
her sister played
the Ricky Nelson record
over and over
which came through
the wall
Elaine leaned her back
against the door
and looked at the bed
with the Teddy Bear
her parents had bought her
years before
her mother down stairs
said about bringing
down the soiled washing
she walked towards the window
and looked out
the garden was tidy
her father
had worked hard on it
the green house sparkled
in the afternoon sun
she walked to the dressing table
and stared at herself
was she a frump?
the girls in class
said she was
even some of the boys
who bothered
to talk to her at all
said she was
she pushed back
her dark hair
from her eyes
and stared hard
the boy John liked her
and after the kiss
the other day
she felt unsure
when she was with him
he seemed friendly
he seemed a little odd
when he talked
of birds and butterflies
she sighed and took off
her school blouse
and dropped it
on the bed
then unzipped
her school skirt
and let it fall
to the floor
she was frumpy
she thought
looking at herself
standing there
her reflection
in the mirror
wearing the small bra
and green underwear
she closed her eyes
the Ricky Nelson voice
echoing still
the memory of John's kiss
on the edge of her mind
she pressed
her lips together
pouted
pretended he
had kissed her again
his lips pressing
she ran her tongue
over her lower lip
back and forth
side to side
she turned away
from the mirror
her back to it
she opened her eyes
and embraced herself
her fingers visible
over one shoulder
and at the side
of her ribs
she pretended
they were his
fingers visible
his arms
holding her
she kissed
her shoulder
it was just pretence
she didn't think
she could face
the real thing
not his lips there
not his hands
embracing her
she walked to her bed
and lay down
staring at the ceiling
unsure what she felt
or what it was
her 14 year old body
was hotly feeling.
A 14 YEAR OLD GIRL IN 1962 AND A BOY AND HER FEELINGS.
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