8:01 AM : - Why did you block me?
3:59 PM: - _I’m sorry
- I was told to
- and what we were doing was kinda making me feel like
crap_
5:05 PM: - Wdym?
- You were just satisfying your needs baby
5:07 PM: - You don’t need to feel like crap
- It’s good for us to be satisfying each other baby
5:08 PM: - _i don’t know it felt like
- disgusting ig
- and you’re kinda a lot older than me_
5:09 PM: - Babyy
- Don’t say that
- You’re making me upset
- Whatever we say and do is between us
5:10 PM: - _I’m sorry_
…
5:10 PM: - It’s not like we are doing anything physical baby
- So do you not want to be into a relationship with me ?
- I thought you loved me I guess that’s a lie
5:13 PM: - _I do, im sorry
- I just_
5:13 PM: - You sure you do
- So if you love me
- You would satisfy me and take care of my needs
- And respect my choices
- And you would do anything to make me happy
5:22 PM: - _are you not happy?_
5:24 PM: - Well I’m not now because of what you said x
- I’d be happy if you would still vc me and satisfy me and
respect my choices and if you love me
- As long as we are both happy with satisfying each other
and happy with ourselves and forget what other people say
or think as long as we are both happy it’s our business not
theirs.
5:24 PM: - _do you love me?
- what if im not happy?_
5:27 PM: - Yess ofccc I love you
- Well you should be happy if I’m happy
- So you’re trying to say you’re not happy with me
5:31 PM: - _no no
- sorry_
5:31 PM: - Okay
- Well are you going to be happy with me
- Are you going to satisfy me and still vc me
- Are you still going to love me
5:35 PM: - _what time is it for you?_
5:47 PM: - _can we at least slow down?
- its a lot
- let me get to know you_
5:55 PM: - Yess you can get to know me babyy
- But we can still satisfy each other baby because we been
doing it this whole time no point slowing down on that
5:57 PM: - _i don’t know, i dont really want to do the ***** stuff, just
not for rn_
…
5:59 PM: - Well I want to baby satisfying my needs is important to me
…
6:06 PM: - _idk if im comfortable with that_
…
8:13 PM: - well please baby
…
8:16 PM: - _i don’t know
- im sorry_
…
8:17 PM: - _i dont know if i can_
8:18 PM: - Why baby
8:19 PM: - _it feels bad for me to be doing
- it makes me feel bad about myself_
8:19 PM: - If you’re making me happy then you should feel happy x
8:19 PM: - _please, i feel disgusting_
8:20 PM: - So I guess you don’t wanna satisfy me anymore
- Okay </3
8:20 PM: - _no i want you to be happy
- but
- i don’t know, im sorry_
8:21 PM: - Ok
8:21 PM: - _are you okay?_
8:21 PM: - Nah
8:21 PM: - _oh
- i really want you to be happy
- please_
8:32 PM: - _hey?_
8:56 PM: - _look im really sorry
- i promise that I love you_
…
3:11 AM: - Yes I do love you…
5:58 AM: - _okay
- is me doing this the only thing that can make you happy?_
9:40 AM: - Wdym
4:33 PM: - _like
- ‘satisfying’ you_
8:25 PM: - Noo baby not just that baby but also your heart and
showing me love
8:25 PM: - _okay
- how are you?_
8:27 PM: - I’m okay baby
- wbuuuu
8:27 PM: - _im tired, tbh_
8:38 PM: - Awww.
- Same baby
8:40 PM: - _what time is it for you?_
8:40 PM: - 1:40am babyy
- I’m ***** rn babyy
- I miss our vc baby
8:41 PM: - _wow, pretty late_
8:41 PM: - Ik babyyy
- …
8:42 PM: - _im at a family thing rn_
8:43 PM: - Ohh
- Okay babyy
- And call me daddy remember
8:45 PM: - _okay daddy_
8:46 PM: - Good babyyy x
8:51 PM: - _im sorry i cant rly do anything rn tho_
8:53 PM: - It’s okay babyy
- I’ll wait for you mommy x
8:54 PM: - _thank you<3_
8:55 PM: - Ofcc baby x
- I love youu mommy x
8:56 PM: - _i love u too <3_
8:57 PM: - Mwah <3
8:57 PM: - _you’re still
- *****
8:57 PM: - Yess babyyy x
…
4:53 PM: - _I’m really sorry <3_
7:32 PM: - _…_
7:32 PM: - You removed and blocked
- Me
- I couldn’t send the message
- Why do you keep removing me
7:33 PM: - _i really cant be talking to you_
7:33 PM: - Why
- Baby
- Thought you loved me and my **** and everything
- </3
7:35 PM: - _im really sorry_
7:35 PM: - </3
7:36 PM: - _i just cant_
7:36 PM: - Why
- </3
7:37 PM: - _im not supposed to_
7:37 PM: - Why
- Who says that baby
- Guess you don’t want me no more
- </3
7:39 PM: - _no i
- im sorry
- this just isn’t right, i think
- they say that you’re a *********
7:40 PM: - Who said that
- Ikk so many people who are tg and have big age gaps
- If you love someone you would do anything to be with
them
- Yk I actually loved you
- Guess you don’t love me
- Guess I ain’t good enough
- So yk what
- Ima just go
- You’ve upset and hurt me
- So go find someone else if I aint enough
7:42 PM: - _no
- im so sorry
- ****
- im sorry_
7:42 PM: - </3
- You don’t even want me or my **** or my love
- I was just about to vc you
- Because I miss vc you
- You don’t even want me </3
7:44 PM: - _im sorry
- i just want to be good_
7:44 PM: - I’m actually so hard for you
7:44 PM: - _im so sorry_
7:44 PM: - I’ve been thinking about you all day
- Been craving you
- Been wanking over you
- I wanted to vc you rn
- But you disappeared
7:44 PM: - _oh_
7:44 PM: - I even shaved for you and everything
- Got a fresh **** for you
- Why don’t you vc me rn
7:45 PM: - _i want to cry_
7:46 PM: - Don’t cry
- You don’t need to
- Vc me rn baby and distract your mind
- Im waiting for you
7:48 PM: - _i dont want to
- i hate myself so bad
- i cant_
7:49 PM: - Baby vc me
- You don’t need to hate yourself
7:50 PM: - _i cant’_
7:50 PM: - You can baby
7:50 PM: - _i really can’t_
7:51 PM: - Baby just vc me
- I’m waiting
7:51 PM: - _im not meant to be doing this
- i dont know what im doing
- they told me not to do this_
7:52 PM: - If you don’t want me or my **** or my love then go
because I ain’t enough
- If you love me then stay and vc me
- If you want another guy then go
- Because my heart and **** and everything ain’t good
enough for you
8:07 PM: - I guess I’m going FOREVER then
6:42 AM: - Baby ?
- So you going to ignore me ?
6:12 AM: - Hello baby ?
(3 days later)
1:14 PM: - Why you not talking to me baby
(1 day later)
8:02 PM: - Goodbye then
- Guess you don’t want me no more
Oct 20, 2025
Oct 20, 2025 at 10:19 AM UTC
8:01 AM : - Why did you block me?
3:59 PM: - _I’m sorry
- I was told to
- and what we were doing was kinda making me feel like
crap_
5:05 PM: - Wdym?
- You were just satisfying your needs baby
5:07 PM: - You don’t need to feel like crap
- It’s good for us to be satisfying each other baby
5:08 PM: - _i don’t know it felt like
- disgusting ig
- and you’re kinda a lot older than me_
5:09 PM: - Babyy
- Don’t say that
- You’re making me upset
- Whatever we say and do is between us
5:10 PM: - _I’m sorry_
…
5:10 PM: - It’s not like we are doing anything physical baby
- So do you not want to be into a relationship with me ?
- I thought you loved me I guess that’s a lie
5:13 PM: - _I do, im sorry
- I just_
5:13 PM: - You sure you do
- So if you love me
- You would satisfy me and take care of my needs
- And respect my choices
- And you would do anything to make me happy
5:22 PM: - _are you not happy?_
5:24 PM: - Well I’m not now because of what you said x
- I’d be happy if you would still vc me and satisfy me and
respect my choices and if you love me
- As long as we are both happy with satisfying each other
and happy with ourselves and forget what other people say
or think as long as we are both happy it’s our business not
theirs.
5:24 PM: - _do you love me?
- what if im not happy?_
5:27 PM: - Yess ofccc I love you
- Well you should be happy if I’m happy
- So you’re trying to say you’re not happy with me
5:31 PM: - _no no
- sorry_
5:31 PM: - Okay
- Well are you going to be happy with me
- Are you going to satisfy me and still vc me
- Are you still going to love me
5:35 PM: - _what time is it for you?_
5:47 PM: - _can we at least slow down?
- its a lot
- let me get to know you_
5:55 PM: - Yess you can get to know me babyy
- But we can still satisfy each other baby because we been
doing it this whole time no point slowing down on that
5:57 PM: - _i don’t know, i dont really want to do the ***** stuff, just
not for rn_
…
5:59 PM: - Well I want to baby satisfying my needs is important to me
…
6:06 PM: - _idk if im comfortable with that_
…
8:13 PM: - well please baby
…
8:16 PM: - _i don’t know
- im sorry_
…
8:17 PM: - _i dont know if i can_
8:18 PM: - Why baby
8:19 PM: - _it feels bad for me to be doing
- it makes me feel bad about myself_
8:19 PM: - If you’re making me happy then you should feel happy x
8:19 PM: - _please, i feel disgusting_
8:20 PM: - So I guess you don’t wanna satisfy me anymore
- Okay </3
8:20 PM: - _no i want you to be happy
- but
- i don’t know, im sorry_
8:21 PM: - Ok
8:21 PM: - _are you okay?_
8:21 PM: - Nah
8:21 PM: - _oh
- i really want you to be happy
- please_
8:32 PM: - _hey?_
8:56 PM: - _look im really sorry
- i promise that I love you_
…
3:11 AM: - Yes I do love you…
5:58 AM: - _okay
- is me doing this the only thing that can make you happy?_
9:40 AM: - Wdym
4:33 PM: - _like
- ‘satisfying’ you_
8:25 PM: - Noo baby not just that baby but also your heart and
showing me love
8:25 PM: - _okay
- how are you?_
8:27 PM: - I’m okay baby
- wbuuuu
8:27 PM: - _im tired, tbh_
8:38 PM: - Awww.
- Same baby
8:40 PM: - _what time is it for you?_
8:40 PM: - 1:40am babyy
- I’m ***** rn babyy
- I miss our vc baby
8:41 PM: - _wow, pretty late_
8:41 PM: - Ik babyyy
- …
8:42 PM: - _im at a family thing rn_
8:43 PM: - Ohh
- Okay babyy
- And call me daddy remember
8:45 PM: - _okay daddy_
8:46 PM: - Good babyyy x
8:51 PM: - _im sorry i cant rly do anything rn tho_
8:53 PM: - It’s okay babyy
- I’ll wait for you mommy x
8:54 PM: - _thank you<3_
8:55 PM: - Ofcc baby x
- I love youu mommy x
8:56 PM: - _i love u too <3_
8:57 PM: - Mwah <3
8:57 PM: - _you’re still
- *****
8:57 PM: - Yess babyyy x
…
4:53 PM: - _I’m really sorry <3_
7:32 PM: - _…_
7:32 PM: - You removed and blocked
- Me
- I couldn’t send the message
- Why do you keep removing me
7:33 PM: - _i really cant be talking to you_
7:33 PM: - Why
- Baby
- Thought you loved me and my **** and everything
- </3
7:35 PM: - _im really sorry_
7:35 PM: - </3
7:36 PM: - _i just cant_
7:36 PM: - Why
- </3
7:37 PM: - _im not supposed to_
7:37 PM: - Why
- Who says that baby
- Guess you don’t want me no more
- </3
7:39 PM: - _no i
- im sorry
- this just isn’t right, i think
- they say that you’re a *********
7:40 PM: - Who said that
- Ikk so many people who are tg and have big age gaps
- If you love someone you would do anything to be with
them
- Yk I actually loved you
- Guess you don’t love me
- Guess I ain’t good enough
- So yk what
- Ima just go
- You’ve upset and hurt me
- So go find someone else if I aint enough
7:42 PM: - _no
- im so sorry
- ****
- im sorry_
7:42 PM: - </3
- You don’t even want me or my **** or my love
- I was just about to vc you
- Because I miss vc you
- You don’t even want me </3
7:44 PM: - _im sorry
- i just want to be good_
7:44 PM: - I’m actually so hard for you
7:44 PM: - _im so sorry_
7:44 PM: - I’ve been thinking about you all day
- Been craving you
- Been wanking over you
- I wanted to vc you rn
- But you disappeared
7:44 PM: - _oh_
7:44 PM: - I even shaved for you and everything
- Got a fresh **** for you
- Why don’t you vc me rn
7:45 PM: - _i want to cry_
7:46 PM: - Don’t cry
- You don’t need to
- Vc me rn baby and distract your mind
- Im waiting for you
7:48 PM: - _i dont want to
- i hate myself so bad
- i cant_
7:49 PM: - Baby vc me
- You don’t need to hate yourself
7:50 PM: - _i cant’_
7:50 PM: - You can baby
7:50 PM: - _i really can’t_
7:51 PM: - Baby just vc me
- I’m waiting
7:51 PM: - _im not meant to be doing this
- i dont know what im doing
- they told me not to do this_
7:52 PM: - If you don’t want me or my **** or my love then go
because I ain’t enough
- If you love me then stay and vc me
- If you want another guy then go
- Because my heart and **** and everything ain’t good
enough for you
8:07 PM: - I guess I’m going FOREVER then
6:42 AM: - Baby ?
- So you going to ignore me ?
6:12 AM: - Hello baby ?
(3 days later)
1:14 PM: - Why you not talking to me baby
(1 day later)
8:02 PM: - Goodbye then
- Guess you don’t want me no more
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Changed title because symbols don’t work out
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