Everybody’s shining bright like a diamond
But I’m sitting here like a lump
Fernet bottle warm from the last sip
Dwindling heart cold from the mems.
Diminishing smiles as soon as I realize I should
You’re not happy
You can’t be happy.
You think they care?
Nope
You think they want you around?
You think they know that you need them?
No
Had a good day with a good friend
But that’s gone now
The fernet is calling
Just a sec
Boom
It’s the fourth. It’s fine
No ones gonna care if one more spark happens
No ones gonna notice.
NO ONE CARES
How many times do I have to fake fall asleep
before I realize I should have tried hours ago?
Why do I keep stuffing my face?
I’m getting fat
I’m so bored
I’m so worried
that I listen to everything
Waiting for the moment I hear something that vaguely reminds me of a car.
I look outside
Hoping that in some overly polite ******* world
people will notice me.
Be my friend.
Care
But the fernet works
It’s
Boom
Warms me again
Play a song
Make a song
About what went right today
Finish the song in 5 minutes.
The song needs lyrics
I can’t write lyrics
Not like this
I’m not happy anymore
It’s that fast
That’s how fast a song can be made
That’s how fast a bottle can be drank
That’s how fast you can doubt yourself
”firework” to my head
Boom
It’s the fourth
It’s fine
No ones gonna care if one more spark happens
No one is going to notice
NO ONE CARES