Five years old and they
could not hear me in the backyard --
I called out, the gate was locked and
the screen door, mesh frayed at the handle,
was locked too -- I could see it --
and they still couldn't hear me and I
was afraid and the mesh
was frayed and my little finger
just barely fit through and then
aunt Lucy came and made sure
that I was punished.
(The reward for my fear was
the most frightening and humiliating
experience of my childhood)
I hid.
"Get out here!" my father yelled
and his voice made me flinch and
trembling I unhid.
my uncle and aunt watched
as my father spanked me
harder and angrier than ever before,
my uncle and aunt watched
the shock of every blow
reverberating
through my tiny body
until
my uncle and aunt watched
everything let go
and I ****** myself on the floor
in front of them
weeping and violated
I do not remember what was said after
they left the room and
I was alone with my shame
while the sun fell the walls
faded blue the ride home
was silent --
-- all over some torn mesh
and doors they should not have locked.
Oct 25, 2016
Oct 25, 2016 at 4:27 PM UTC
Five years old and they
could not hear me in the backyard --
I called out, the gate was locked and
the screen door, mesh frayed at the handle,
was locked too -- I could see it --
and they still couldn't hear me and I
was afraid and the mesh
was frayed and my little finger
just barely fit through and then
aunt Lucy came and made sure
that I was punished.
(The reward for my fear was
the most frightening and humiliating
experience of my childhood)
I hid.
"Get out here!" my father yelled
and his voice made me flinch and
trembling I unhid.
my uncle and aunt watched
as my father spanked me
harder and angrier than ever before,
my uncle and aunt watched
the shock of every blow
reverberating
through my tiny body
until
my uncle and aunt watched
everything let go
and I ****** myself on the floor
in front of them
weeping and violated
I do not remember what was said after
they left the room and
I was alone with my shame
while the sun fell the walls
faded blue the ride home
was silent --
-- all over some torn mesh
and doors they should not have locked.
I hope it was worth it.
