needed you you didn’t
hush quiet keep to yourself
reveal little parts and stay hidden
it’s already been written
it’s already been said
tiresome. catch up and stuff.
the dilly dallying before the meaty bits. the juice bits you think about when i’m gone.
figure out on your own. which way is up and which down.
which call to take and which to pretend i’m taking a nap for.
did you watch this? i cried. indulgent.
when there is no best to put on.
when all i am is curled up, shriveled, incoherent ‘i need you’s but indignant **** off’s—
empty eyes and droopy cheeks—
who wants to be there when it is harder than **** **** grab.
heart homes and mountain tops.
make plans with your cigarette instead.