I wake up around 3 A.M. my body starts to quake i try to stay quiet but theres only so much i can take. my little brothers asleep he shouldnt see me this way. i work my way to my room grab the bottle , there i stay. close the door until they start to taper away. when did it get this bad i really have no-one but wish someone would see that lately im not me. ive been these thoughts that only with death ill be free. i shutter at the thought that i would even think of leaving my brother. Id only take my pain and give it to the people i love but keep at bay.Sometimes i think of asking but i dont know what to say.the pill settles and my mind starts to stray, the warm feelings back now everything is going to be okay.
May 28, 2015
May 28, 2015 at 10:31 PM UTC
I wake up around 3 A.M. my body starts to quake i try to stay quiet but theres only so much i can take. my little brothers asleep he shouldnt see me this way. i work my way to my room grab the bottle , there i stay. close the door until they start to taper away. when did it get this bad i really have no-one but wish someone would see that lately im not me. ive been these thoughts that only with death ill be free. i shutter at the thought that i would even think of leaving my brother. Id only take my pain and give it to the people i love but keep at bay.Sometimes i think of asking but i dont know what to say.the pill settles and my mind starts to stray, the warm feelings back now everything is going to be okay.
