So many days
I stare into wandering space,
Wondering how I let myself get here…
How could I let you in:
Energy so mangled and searching
For someone like me,
To drown away everything that you were:
It was a lie,
Really, I was a graveyard for you:
To lay down your sins
Never let me in, and still somehow…
You think I won
taking the bare minimum
scraping by each day hoping
you would stop causing me pain.
Its true,
Loving you was suffering, like running a little hamster wheel
tripping, exhausted and yet
It was only for you to gain…
It was all a game.
All said and done,
I dont feel anything for you
I dont know why i did it
the only thing i know is
I'm ashamed to have loved someone like you.
a.wild
Aug 1, 2025
Aug 1, 2025 at 4:09 AM UTC
So many days
I stare into wandering space,
Wondering how I let myself get here…
How could I let you in:
Energy so mangled and searching
For someone like me,
To drown away everything that you were:
It was a lie,
Really, I was a graveyard for you:
To lay down your sins
Never let me in, and still somehow…
You think I won
taking the bare minimum
scraping by each day hoping
you would stop causing me pain.
Its true,
Loving you was suffering, like running a little hamster wheel
tripping, exhausted and yet
It was only for you to gain…
It was all a game.
All said and done,
I dont feel anything for you
I dont know why i did it
the only thing i know is
I'm ashamed to have loved someone like you.
a.wild
ashamed …
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