Raging, roiling, boiling sea,
filling every last crevice
inside of me
Washing away my last
gasps of breath,
leaving me winded
and ready for death.
I've swum for so long,
and yet not long enough;
It's not right to give up now
but these waves are getting rough.
I'm getting the hang of
letting myself sink
a bit
Just enough for the cold
to ache in my bones
And every time it rains
My skeleton cries and drones.
The depths are so much
calmer than the rage above,
All I see from here
are faint ghosts that push and shove
I
want to inhale the cold,
but the cold will smother me,
and I'll never grow old.
This all hurts, every wave
and every splash
The rushing current
to pull me under in a flash
I'm just trying to swim,
listen to the silly blue fish,
keep going, don't stop,
You can have anything you wish!
I'm just tired. Is that even allowed?
We say it's okay, but our actions
speak the ugly truth.
There's just no satisfaction.
Everyone around me is tired, too.
Is it fair to stop swimming,
and let them go on in peace?
There's another race I'm never winning.
I don't need a life preserver,
nothing is wrong, because
others around me are drowning, too.
Life simply doesn't take a pause.
This all hurts, I can't breathe,
I don't like what's inside of me
The water I've breathed
boiling and roiling and ready for tea
Leaking through organs
and soaking in my veins
My head is swimming,
and surely that sounds insane.
Must be lack of oxygen flow,
'cause I'm still sinking
Bubbles slipping from my lips
I blow and up they go
Sinking, thinking, dreaming sea
lay to rest what's inside of me,
and in your darkness, I will sleep.
Sep 24, 2023
Sep 24, 2023 at 3:36 AM UTC
Raging, roiling, boiling sea,
filling every last crevice
inside of me
Washing away my last
gasps of breath,
leaving me winded
and ready for death.
I've swum for so long,
and yet not long enough;
It's not right to give up now
but these waves are getting rough.
I'm getting the hang of
letting myself sink
a bit
Just enough for the cold
to ache in my bones
And every time it rains
My skeleton cries and drones.
The depths are so much
calmer than the rage above,
All I see from here
are faint ghosts that push and shove
I
want to inhale the cold,
but the cold will smother me,
and I'll never grow old.
This all hurts, every wave
and every splash
The rushing current
to pull me under in a flash
I'm just trying to swim,
listen to the silly blue fish,
keep going, don't stop,
You can have anything you wish!
I'm just tired. Is that even allowed?
We say it's okay, but our actions
speak the ugly truth.
There's just no satisfaction.
Everyone around me is tired, too.
Is it fair to stop swimming,
and let them go on in peace?
There's another race I'm never winning.
I don't need a life preserver,
nothing is wrong, because
others around me are drowning, too.
Life simply doesn't take a pause.
This all hurts, I can't breathe,
I don't like what's inside of me
The water I've breathed
boiling and roiling and ready for tea
Leaking through organs
and soaking in my veins
My head is swimming,
and surely that sounds insane.
Must be lack of oxygen flow,
'cause I'm still sinking
Bubbles slipping from my lips
I blow and up they go
Sinking, thinking, dreaming sea
lay to rest what's inside of me,
and in your darkness, I will sleep.
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