I did not think those words you said
Would make me feel this sad
Or that confirmation of what I already knew
Could hurt my heart so bad
I guess I blinded myself
Out of fear for misery
It was easier saying I believed you
Than to stand ground and disagree
Plus putting you down for past mistakes
Would not help the situation
Degrading wouldn't decrease disappointment
Only increase aggravation
You do not need to hide the past
Heard you mumble words you will not repeat
"I'll never cheat and hurt you again"
I did not even miss a beat
I winced slightly though you did not see
Luckily we were joined by phone
It suffocated my grieving heart
I kept my hurt feelings unknown
It was hard keeping my voice even
Harder to focus on yours
I pondered ***** details
Many possibilities explored
I've been aware of your disloyalty
For some time now
Yet tore heart more than expected
Hearing it spoken aloud
Pretended not to notice
Told myself I did not care
Your friendship is too dear to me
To lose over an old affair
I think of all that we have been through
Indiscretions I chose to let slide
The lying, betrayal, and pointless games
Trying though hard to put the past aside
Leave your mistakes, and mine behind
Believing it is possible to change
No matter how I wish you to
Only my head has been rearranged
It was I who wanted to know the truth
It sounds different than I thought it would
Discovering getting what you wished for
Does not always feel that good.
Dec 8, 2018
Dec 8, 2018 at 2:28 PM UTC
I did not think those words you said
Would make me feel this sad
Or that confirmation of what I already knew
Could hurt my heart so bad
I guess I blinded myself
Out of fear for misery
It was easier saying I believed you
Than to stand ground and disagree
Plus putting you down for past mistakes
Would not help the situation
Degrading wouldn't decrease disappointment
Only increase aggravation
You do not need to hide the past
Heard you mumble words you will not repeat
"I'll never cheat and hurt you again"
I did not even miss a beat
I winced slightly though you did not see
Luckily we were joined by phone
It suffocated my grieving heart
I kept my hurt feelings unknown
It was hard keeping my voice even
Harder to focus on yours
I pondered ***** details
Many possibilities explored
I've been aware of your disloyalty
For some time now
Yet tore heart more than expected
Hearing it spoken aloud
Pretended not to notice
Told myself I did not care
Your friendship is too dear to me
To lose over an old affair
I think of all that we have been through
Indiscretions I chose to let slide
The lying, betrayal, and pointless games
Trying though hard to put the past aside
Leave your mistakes, and mine behind
Believing it is possible to change
No matter how I wish you to
Only my head has been rearranged
It was I who wanted to know the truth
It sounds different than I thought it would
Discovering getting what you wished for
Does not always feel that good.
Sometimes you still hold onto a small glimmer of hope so when your fears are confirmed it is still a punch to the heart..
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